Limited editions. Limited writers. Limited rights. How do we combat that? When the right talent is not in the right place. Movements, quits and hop-skip and jumps all over again. It becomes a cycle, a habit, an addiction. Even thinking and actions get restricted. A better way to improvise it…..let’s think, but not limit our ways. Thinking beyond imagination, looking beyond the reality and yes, the connection with words, circumstances and people.
How often does this take place? In my case, yes all the more. It starts with ignorance, negligence and rejection, humiliation a long way. Battling goes on in the mind. I can’t express, I hold back and I’m short of ideas. My thinking power reduces. Not because I can’t or don’t want to. It’s the suppression of dominance of experience over the amateurs. Taught great things, discussed and arriving at a point of decision is the final approval. I have no say, I can’t think better than this. Why a ‘NO’, just because I’m not at the level of superiority? Crap. My idea is better, why there is no way to extend and elaborate on it. Yours is all said and done. Innovation is far too long, I’m talking about the newness and ways of exploring the same thing. Execution is difficult, not impossible. I need words of acceptance and appreciation for the spontaneity I express. It’s about observation, vocabulary or just my imagination. Could be just anything.
I have although no connection or it’s not my job. But I need to communicate and contribute. It’s the way I feel, I think, I behave. The purity and genuineness of thoughts is what is lacking. Even if I’m wrong or the direction isn’t correct, I need an explanation of not being considered. I believe in sharing what I have and so exchange of ideas flow. We always tend to focus on our strengths, and lose focus on our weaknesses. A break through is needed. Why follow the system and rules, when those who have made it have no idea why it exists? It’s a question of we are not what you perceive, we have areas of concern that need to be brought so that we don’t get accumulated and jammed where growth gets stagnant. Rising above the expected; expectations lead to disappointment. Is this destiny or what I deserve? I don’t believe in luck or co-incidence. It’s just my faith in the Almighty that has worked out well. A plan in store, one direction I’m going to follow.
Battered from all sides, I’m the victim, the culprit and the savior. I’m managing time and always assure myself that all is going the right way. I didn’t want to disturb the cycle nor wanted to get into conflicts with the mind. Is it going to take place? God knows. And yes, how can I take it forward with the limited resources I have. I quit. I change. I suffer and live with it.
It’s time to change the perspective or wait for the right time. I’m confused, not directed and lose the opportunities that come my way. I get dragged into things I wouldn’t have done just in order to satisfy the gaps in my life. Frustrated need of the hour. Could be anything. And lose sight of the travel plan. That replacement isn’t perfect nor is it good for the yearning soul. Its effects are reaching out really fast and I’m left behind lost in the crowd of strangers. They can be friends, I doubt trusting them, I have become less sensitive to the needs that hurt me the most. I escape, run away and shape myself in a way that there is no hope for limited souls.
Yes, the conflict continues and waiting patiently and praying is what I can do for now. I start working towards that goal with the resources I have. How long is it going to take? Bitterness and all that criticism good up to a certain level, then it gets monotonous and I lose interest. Limited again by interests, span of life is limited, and so it makes me go weak and give up. Pay heed and listen to what I have to say. I need an acknowledgment for the doing all that thinking and writing! I have logic, thought and connection and all that is need in me to reach there! I don’t want to be the best or get ahead of you. So don’t be insecure, be glad to know I’m in your league and a true follower of you. I aspire for unlimited (w)rites simply because it has no substitute. It stands on its own! The license to think and write, I believe we all have the freedom to our writes!