For all i know my brain could be in the midst of a tsunami....Going Up ...Sinking down... and mostly causing turmoil for ones around.... Crazy "CRAZY" stuff that its capable off....And when mixed with a dash of hormones.... OH THY RECIPE OF DISASTER!!!!!........That's almost my state of mind right now...."ALMOST"......Lets just keep it at that....
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I feel helpless around people in pain....Helpless and Guilty....Watching facial features contort and listening to the sighs and moans....Deeply aware of the huge gulf between us...I cannot penetrate their suffering...I can only watch....Whatever I attempt to say seems weak and stiff, as if I'd memorized the lines for a school play......
Pain is Gift that nobody seems to want....Ask a Leper and he'll tell you exactly why....He wishes to feel pain...and its unpleasant nature....Unpleasant enough to force him withdraw his fingers from the stove or that needle prick...Yet that very quality saves from destruction...Unless the warning signal demands response, one might not heed it....We dare not shut off the warning system without first listening to the warning.....Pain demands the attention which is crucial for recovery.....
Whenever I am tempted to curse God for pain ....I remember the thousand ways large or small,pain serves us each day,making possible normal life on this planet.....Pain cells alert us when to go to the bathroom,when to change shoes,when to blink....Without pain,we would lead lives of paranoia,defenseless against unfelt dangers....The only safe environment for a painless person is to stay in bed all day....but even that produces bedsores.......
Even more neglected,however,is the intimate connection that links pain and pleasure....The 2 sensations work together so closely they sometimes becomes almost indistinguishable....Pain is an essential component for our most satisfying experiences.....The sensors that produce feelings of sexual pleasure are the same ones that carry messages of alarm....Dissection of the erogenous zones yields an abundance of touch and pressure cells(which explains why those areas so sensitive to pain),but no cells devoted to pleasure...Nature is never so lavish....."To be dry and thirsty in a hot and dusty land --and to fell great drops of rain on your bare skin--ah,is this not happiness!! To to have an itch in your privates and finally escape from friends to a place when you can scratch...Or to wait for the party to get over just to have sex and orgasm!!!....I can give you a long list of happiness experiences,virtually every one combines pain and pleasure...
I do not mean to gloss over or discount the very real suffering in this world....Nevertheless,when something bad happens and we feel we have no control over the tragedy itself,we still have some control over our own responses....We can lash out in bitterness and anger against the unfairness of life that has deprived us of pleasure of joy...Or,we can look for good in unexpected sources,even our apparent enemies....
When something bad happens----a disagreement with my boyfriend,a painful misunderstanding with a friend,an ache of guilt over some responsibility...I have let slide--I try to view that occurrence as i would physical pain....I accept it as a signal alerting me to attend to a matter that needs change...I strive to be grateful,not for the pain itself but for the opportunity to respond,to form good out of what works bad......
If i spend my life searching for happiness through drugs,comfort and luxury, it will elude me..."happiness recedes from those who pursue her"....Happiness will come upon me unexpected as a by-product,a surprising bonus for something I have invested myself in...And,most likely,that investment will include pain...Its hard to imagine pleasure without it......
i see your blogs are becoming popular. way to go. very interesting observation you made here. congrats
again: sugar coated!!!!..... still love u man.....
I just loved this post Kathy!! Really genuine, moving, blunt and brilliant!! Sensational stuff!! Keep going girl!! Awesome!!
Poetic brilliance conveying the message of life!! Really really good!!
ooo...... those words seem like from the back of a bestseller........ thanks a ton.....