Mirror Mirror on the Wall...Whose the failure among us all....ME!!!....Its happening again...you cant control it....slipping off your hands while tearing you apart...Not cause its effecting you.....but the people around you...Their pain you wish could be erazed.....
Your alone,technically you really are....Your hiding those tears strong behind you cause when they start there's no stopping them....flood-gates OPEN!!!...They just don't STOP!!!
STOP!!!..You wanna scream it loud....Just fucking STOOOPPPPP!!!!.......I want the steering wheel....The remote...The time machine...The escape....The Drug....THE END!!!!
The "End"...I love romancing it...The idea of no expectation...nothing to look forward to..nothing can hurt you no more...your numb...nothing worse can happen...Its finally "Happily Ever After".....
The happily ever after you've always craved for...That you NEED, DESIRE and LUST!!!...Its your ultimate orgasm....No more miss fairy-tale...No princess....No prince charming....No white gown with a long train....No kiss to seal the deal...NO...NO...NONE-EVER......
EVER wondered why i write???....Its my escape....My antidote...My Ecstasy....You cry with tears....My Pen bleeds....Its bleeds my heart...My soul...My Pain!!!....
PAIN you don't wanna tell anyone about...pain you wish you could share but cant...pain thats eating you alone...pain if shared wouldn't be judged....just a listen...A hug....Maybe try UNDERSTANDING...maybe NOT...
Understanding is difficult....I'm yet to understand life...I guess LIFE is something one cant understand...,rather one doesn't need to....
LIFE i wanna give up on you.....Stop conflicting my mind...I just wanna give up on you....I tried going parallel with you....But your ways are too dark and gloomy....Your the wicked witch of my fairy tale....WITCH....no no...rather the BITCH....
FUCKING BITCHES.....my ego...my attitude...my attributes....all bitches...I built them to protect me...not destroy ME...NOT ME!!!!....
ME??....Who am i???...Daddys little princess??...Mommys' big pain???....Sisters big hug???....The bitch of high-school???.......The humble stranger you wish you knew???...The wannabe bimbo???...The foul mouthed drama queen???....The slut you'd wish dead???....Or the PROTECTIVE friend???....
Why dint i PROTECT myself enough??....ENCLOSE myself...A cocoon so no hurt can seep in....Nothing can hurt...Actually i did....or i tried....But they always have loop-holes....They always know their way around it....They always WILL.....
WILL i be remembered???.....and for what???...The bad example you give your kids???....The one you'd wish not to be born off???....A friend to be made unknown..??....A girlfriend never to be owned??....A WHAT???....I know these answers....These answers make for a good read.....
ANSWERS for this life....answers to god....Answers to yours and mine....Just Answers....The last i'll remember is these answers....Just answers...Just answered MIRRORED............

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